I had all these grand plans for this blog. I wanted to share what it was like to be in a feminine focused religion and still make the choice to be a housewife. I do run my own business, but its not the same as pursuing a high powered job. However, instead of blogging and working, my path took a much anticipated and sought after turn, and I became a mother.
Moving in to the Mother phase of my life this last year has been incredibly fulfilling and terrifying. I wonder every day how I got to be so lucky, and I worry every day about every little thing my daughter does that doesn't show up in books about average development. I wake up six times a night to check if she's breathing. I think about what she's going to eat and then worry she isn't getting enough.
You see, it doesn't matter what your faith, mothers are all the same. Mothers in the Digital Age have one extra hurdle to jump though. We are constantly inundated with articles, well meaning shared posts, and listicles (list articles) warning us of all the things we are doing wrong, all the things that could go wrong, and all the people who are the opposite of what we are. We feel like we're under constant scrutiny by our peers and what really is happening is we're under constant scrutiny from ourselves.
As a Pagan I feel like its something I have to embrace. We work with The Mother in our rituals and we worship The Mother in our day to day, and we wouldn't have this need to worry and fret and wonder about our children if it wasn't a gift She gave us to help us be better mothers.
So here's to my baby, my return to blogging, and hopefully my ability to worry a little less and enjoy a little more!
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